MeOW Welcome to Service Cats and Everything Feline. We’re takin’ a small detour today fur mommy to pay tribute to an amazing Service Cat, me’s sis Lexi. A lot of you remember her; but fur those who don’t, she was mommy’s Service Cat fur 17 years. Sadly, kidney disease took her from us 2 years ago today. You can read more ‘bout sis Lexi, here, here and here. We’ll be back next week with our regular Service Cat posts. Fanks fur letting us honor sis Lexi’s amazing life and her memory.
My Dearest Sweet Lexi,
Hello my sweet angel. I miss you more than words can say. My heart aches, each and every day. Today marks two years since I last saw your beautiful face; and felt your paw resting on my hand, or the look in your eyes when they met mine. I’ll never forget the purr that could be felt and heard from across the room when our eyes met and we shared a slow blink. In that moment, no words were needed to express the love we shared.
I’ll never forget the day you were born…So tiny and yet so loud. You must have been terrified from the horrors that had brought you into this world. But, what I remember most is how you immediately quieted your screaming and started to rumble all over the minute I held you in my hand for the first time. You seemed to know, everything was going to be okay. You seemed to know you were home. You would have been happy to lay in my arms all the time. You never really needed a space of your own. I remember all those every 2 hour feedings when you preferred sleeping in my arms over eating. I remember when I would try to lay you down to sleep afterwards and you would wriggle your little body up under my shirt or arm or whatever you could so that you could stay close to me just a little longer.
I remember the look on your face the first time you heard me call your name. And I remember the love I saw in your emerald green eyes as they focused in on my face for the first time. I remember seeing the world in a whole new way through your eyes as you experienced everything fresh and new. Each day was a wonder and every experience a welcome challenge. I remember the fear when you thought you might have to leave me and the utter joy when I told you we’d be together forever.
I remember the perseverance and utter determination you had when learning each new task. And, the pride you felt when you mastered those tasks. You would strut around and chirp loudly as if announcing it to the world. I remember each night as I laid my head on the pillow and you began to massage my head and purr away the stresses of the day. I remember waking each morning to find you curled up next to me and how you would gently put your paw on my cheek and purr.
I remember each day that we spent together and never gave a thought to how it might end. I never imagined a day without you. Through all the ups and downs, you were always there. I remember how you fought the disease that wore your body down. I remember when you could no longer stand, but still managed to massage my head as I laid on the pillow each night. Near the end, I remember seeing that fear in your eyes once again when you thought or maybe knew, our time together was coming to an end. You had been my reason for living and the heart that beat in my chest. Maybe you wondered how I would go on.
I can tell you, it isn’t easy, and each day I miss you more. From an abandoned kitten to Queen of the Service Cats, you were that and so much more. Saying that final good night to you hurt me to my core. But, I wouldn’t have missed sharing your life for anything in the world. Dezi and Raena help me now, and fill my life with love. But no one or anything will ever fill the space occupied by your memories, your devotion and love. Those I cherish and think about every day with a smile.
3/9/2016 One of the last photos ever taken of Lexi.
I take some small comfort in knowing you’re pain free and happy again. I will always love you and miss you till the day we meet again on heaven’s beautiful shores. Forever here didn’t last very long, but someday it will have no end. Until then my sweet, my Lexi, enjoy your hereafter and think not of my grief or sorrow. Only think on and remember my love. I know you’re in the best of hands, those of our Lords’.
Hey, is anypawdy out there? It’s me, RaenaBelle. Sissy? Where are you? What’s wrong? Why won’t you play with me this meownin’?
Me’s here Raena, me’s just feelin’ a little sad.
Why, sissy? I’s thought you were tired of the sads and downers.
Me is, Raena. But, that doesn’t always make ‘em stop. Ya’ know your 2nd birthday is comin’ up soon. And altho’ that’s a happy thing and me can’t wait to celebrate; it also reminds me that me’s sis Lexi ain’t ever comin’ back. Me knows mommy’s been missin’ her a lot lately too.
She must’ve been really special fur you to miss her so much, sissy.
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Oh Raena, she was. You would’a luvved her. She was a real boss cat and soooooooooo beautiful. She had emeralds fur eyes that could see right thru ya’. She could be really hissy to peeps and anipals she didn’t like, but ifin she luvved you…she was fierce with her luv. There wasn’t anythin’ she wouldn’t do fur those she luvved. And kittens, did she ever luv mommy. She used to meow to me ‘bout her life with mommy befur me came along. She assured me that mommy would never ever leave us or give up on us. And she used to meow ‘bout her brofurs and how much she missed them. And she luvved me too. Me ‘members the furst time me met her up close and purrsonal like. Me was in the kitchen with mommy while she was makin’ our dinner and in strolled sis Lexi. She took one look at me and splatted me flat on the floor. Belly down and all four legs and paws splayed out.
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Well that doesn’t sound very nice, sissy?.
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Well, she was just lettin’ me know who was the boss. Me quickly stood up, turned sideways and puffed out so me would look bigger. Ya’ know, me was only a few weeks old and really tiny. Y, Her head was bigger than all of me. Me thinks her paws might’ve been too. Anyways, she looked at me all puffed out and looked up at mommy and took off down the hall screamin’. And me does mean screamin’. Me had never heard anythin’ like that befur. Me wasn’t sure what me should do, so me looked up at mommy and mewed me’s squeaky little mew. Mommy picked me up and took me to the pawtty box room where sis Lexi was layin’ in the sink. Mommy held me with one hand and gave sis Lexi some chin scritches and told her that me was her new sisfur and helper and that me wasn’t ever gonna leave ‘em. And then she put me right in sis Lexi’s face.
Oh sissy, that must’ve been really scary. Weren’t you ‘fraid she might splat you again? Or, bite your head off?
No Raena, somehow me seemed to know everythin’ was gonna be alright. And besides, me’s always felt comfurt in mommy’s arms. That’s why me picked her to be me’s mommy. Anyways, sis Lexi let out a huge hiss. Me was sure she’d just blown all me’s furs off with that hiss. But, me’s furs were still there and sis Lexi nose bumped me afterwards. That’s when me knew that she was gonna be the bestest big sisfur ever. Me wanted to be just like her. Me watched everythin’ she did and tried to copy her. Everythin’ she did, she did with her whole bein’. It didn’t matter how old she got, she still played like a kitten, with complete abandon. And when she was helpin’ mommy, she was so focused that not even food or treats could distract her. And let me tell ya’, sis Lexi luvved to eat. Well, least she did, till she didn’t. (Dezi hangs her head as she remembers Lexi’s last days) She was so devoted to mommy and me that even on her goin’ to heaven day, she still tried to give mommy a massage and help her in the shower. She couldn’t even harldy stand up and yet she desperately tried to get in the tub with mommy.
MeOW sissy, she really sounds amazin’.
Yep Raena, she was. Me doesn’t really ‘member too much ‘bout me’s furst 2 weeks of life befur mommy and sis Lexi, so me just couldn’t ‘magine what life was gonna be like without her. But me somehow knew, she wasn’t gonna be with us too much longer. Me was so lost without her. Mommy said sis Lexi was all better again, and furee of all the pain and sickness that had plagued her that last year. But me didn’t care, Me wanted her to come back. But, she didn’t. And then you showed up. Me didn’t wanna be a big sisfur. Me wanted sissy back so me could stay the baby. But, like mommy did with me and sis Lexi, she did the same with you and me. So, me’s just a little sad. Me luvs you, but you’re also a reminder that sissy will never come back. Furiday, will be the second anniversary of sis Lexi’s goin’ to heaven day, and me’s just missin’ her and our time together.
Well sissy, I’s might not have known your sis Lexi, and I’s might not unnerstand what you’re feelin’, but I’s here fur ya’ ifin ya’ need me…and maybe ifin ya’ don’t. Like ya’ meowed, I’s here to stay and ain’t goin’ anywhere. (Raena hugs Dezi and goes to get a nip nanner.) Maybe playin’ with the nip nanner will help, sissy. I’s luvs you very much. And, I’s think you’re the bestest big sisfur ever.
Fanks Raena, you’re not the worst little sisfur either.
(Raena looks at Dezi a bit perterbed but doesn’t respond to being not so bad.) I’s gotta get ready to go with mommy fur another wax fittin’ at the dentist’s office fur her upper denture. I’s’ll ask mommy to bring you home somethin’ special to cheer you up. Okay?