Hi everyone, Mommy A here. Friday was Rainbow Bridge Remembrance day. I had intended to share about the profound relationship Lexi and I had and the way she changed my life forever. While I don’t believe in a rainbow bridge, I do believe in heaven and every day I think of and remember Lexi. So, I hope you’ll allow me to share what a Blessing Lexi was today.
Hey, is anypawdy out there? It’s me, RaenaBelle. Sissy? Where are you? What’s wrong? Why won’t you play with me this meownin’?
Me’s here Raena, me’s just feelin’ a little sad.
Why, sissy? I’s thought you were tired of the sads and downers.
Me is, Raena. But, that doesn’t always make ‘em stop. Ya’ know your 2nd birthday is comin’ up soon. And altho’ that’s a happy thing and me can’t wait to celebrate; it also reminds me that me’s sis Lexi ain’t ever comin’ back. Me knows mommy’s been missin’ her a lot lately too.
She must’ve been really special fur you to miss her so much, sissy.
35mm camera image
Oh Raena, she was. You would’a luvved her. She was a real boss cat and soooooooooo beautiful. She had emeralds fur eyes that could see right thru ya’. She could be really hissy to peeps and anipals she didn’t like, but ifin she luvved you…she was fierce with her luv. There wasn’t anythin’ she wouldn’t do fur those she luvved. And kittens, did she ever luv mommy. She used to meow to me ‘bout her life with mommy befur me came along. She assured me that mommy would never ever leave us or give up on us. And she used to meow ‘bout her brofurs and how much she missed them. And she luvved me too. Me ‘members the furst time me met her up close and purrsonal like. Me was in the kitchen with mommy while she was makin’ our dinner and in strolled sis Lexi. She took one look at me and splatted me flat on the floor. Belly down and all four legs and paws splayed out.
35mm camera image
Well that doesn’t sound very nice, sissy?.
35mm camera image
Well, she was just lettin’ me know who was the boss. Me quickly stood up, turned sideways and puffed out so me would look bigger. Ya’ know, me was only a few weeks old and really tiny. Y, Her head was bigger than all of me. Me thinks her paws might’ve been too. Anyways, she looked at me all puffed out and looked up at mommy and took off down the hall screamin’. And me does mean screamin’. Me had never heard anythin’ like that befur. Me wasn’t sure what me should do, so me looked up at mommy and mewed me’s squeaky little mew. Mommy picked me up and took me to the pawtty box room where sis Lexi was layin’ in the sink. Mommy held me with one hand and gave sis Lexi some chin scritches and told her that me was her new sisfur and helper and that me wasn’t ever gonna leave ‘em. And then she put me right in sis Lexi’s face.
Oh sissy, that must’ve been really scary. Weren’t you ‘fraid she might splat you again? Or, bite your head off?
No Raena, somehow me seemed to know everythin’ was gonna be alright. And besides, me’s always felt comfurt in mommy’s arms. That’s why me picked her to be me’s mommy. Anyways, sis Lexi let out a huge hiss. Me was sure she’d just blown all me’s furs off with that hiss. But, me’s furs were still there and sis Lexi nose bumped me afterwards. That’s when me knew that she was gonna be the bestest big sisfur ever. Me wanted to be just like her. Me watched everythin’ she did and tried to copy her. Everythin’ she did, she did with her whole bein’. It didn’t matter how old she got, she still played like a kitten, with complete abandon. And when she was helpin’ mommy, she was so focused that not even food or treats could distract her. And let me tell ya’, sis Lexi luvved to eat. Well, least she did, till she didn’t. (Dezi hangs her head as she remembers Lexi’s last days) She was so devoted to mommy and me that even on her goin’ to heaven day, she still tried to give mommy a massage and help her in the shower. She couldn’t even harldy stand up and yet she desperately tried to get in the tub with mommy.
MeOW sissy, she really sounds amazin’.
Yep Raena, she was. Me doesn’t really ‘member too much ‘bout me’s furst 2 weeks of life befur mommy and sis Lexi, so me just couldn’t ‘magine what life was gonna be like without her. But me somehow knew, she wasn’t gonna be with us too much longer. Me was so lost without her. Mommy said sis Lexi was all better again, and furee of all the pain and sickness that had plagued her that last year. But me didn’t care, Me wanted her to come back. But, she didn’t. And then you showed up. Me didn’t wanna be a big sisfur. Me wanted sissy back so me could stay the baby. But, like mommy did with me and sis Lexi, she did the same with you and me. So, me’s just a little sad. Me luvs you, but you’re also a reminder that sissy will never come back. Furiday, will be the second anniversary of sis Lexi’s goin’ to heaven day, and me’s just missin’ her and our time together.
Well sissy, I’s might not have known your sis Lexi, and I’s might not unnerstand what you’re feelin’, but I’s here fur ya’ ifin ya’ need me…and maybe ifin ya’ don’t. Like ya’ meowed, I’s here to stay and ain’t goin’ anywhere. (Raena hugs Dezi and goes to get a nip nanner.) Maybe playin’ with the nip nanner will help, sissy. I’s luvs you very much. And, I’s think you’re the bestest big sisfur ever.
Fanks Raena, you’re not the worst little sisfur either.
(Raena looks at Dezi a bit perterbed but doesn’t respond to being not so bad.) I’s gotta get ready to go with mommy fur another wax fittin’ at the dentist’s office fur her upper denture. I’s’ll ask mommy to bring you home somethin’ special to cheer you up. Okay?
RaenaBelle, it’s your turn fur some lap luvvin’ time with mommy.
It’s ‘bout time. But why is she so sad sissy? I’s know the weather has made her pains more and her teeths are hurtin’, but those things don’t usually make her be so sad?.
Oh Raena, you know mommy luvs you very much, right?
Of course, sissy. And I’s luvs mommy verrrrrrrrrrrry much too. I’s so happy that she’s mine’s mommy. I’s try to show her how much I’s luvs her every day.
She knows Raena. She’s sad right now, cuz befur you, me had a big sisfur who mommy luvved very much. They had been together a really long time. And then one day, God called Lexi to heaven. That broke mommy’s heart. Tomorrow will mark 1 year since sis Lexi left us. And tho’ you nor me will ever be Lexi, it’s our job to help ease mommy’s pain from losin’ her.
Should we be doin’ somethin’ special, sissy?
Nope Raena, that’s the beauty of luv. All you have to do is be yourself. As much as we luv mommy, she luvs us. And all we need to do is just show mommy we luv her. Maybe some extra purrs and cuddles, but we luv those too.
Dear furiends, ya’ may have noticed we’ve been a little quieter the last few days. Well, mommy’s been a little sad and down and reminiscin’ ‘bout times past. Raena and me have been getting’ a lot of extra luvvin’, and we’ve been returnin’ it in spades. Mommy wrote a poem to sissy the other day, and we thought we’d share it with ya’ll today. Fur those of ya’ that joined us in the last year, you may not ‘member sis Lexi, but she will always live on in our hearts. We do hope that you will pardon our reflection on such an amazin’ soul. Sis Lexi will always be the Gold Standard by which all Service Cats will be measured. Her luv and devotion to mommy, knew no bounds. Mommy says that same luv exists in all of us, and she is so blest to be the recipient of that luv time and again.
(Raena wipes the tears from mommy’s eyes, and cleans the salty water from her paw and looks up at her.)
We luvs you very much mommy.
I love you girls very much too. Raena, you and Dezi are the greatest blessings in my life. I will always miss Lexi, and those that went before. But I will cherish every moment I have with ya’ll.
While mommy wrote this poem fur sis Lexi, we know a lot of you have lost luvved ones and feel that despair. We dedicate it to all those who have known that luv and lost it. Purrlease know, you can find that luv again just like mommy has with me and Raena. We’re sending out big hugs to you all.